Remember Lili? Where has she gone? Or what about Elvie, my Ocean City roommate of many years?
I actually do know where these women are, one bounces back and forth between Texas and Southern California, while the other has remained in the suburbs of Baltimore all these years. Both have two kids, and from what I can gather from holiday cards and random emails or facebook posts, are doing quite well.
But, oh, those times we had! Somehow they remain fixed in time though, don't they? While we keep moving on -- growing and changing, and as time passes, dealing with all manner of things that we never even stopped to think about back then.
How do we go from completely unencumbered to worried about making the mortgage payment? (Don't answer that, Ellie!)
It's life, I get it. But, really, sometimes, when I stop to think about all the different experiences that I've had, all the places I have visited, people I have known, people I have loved, even, it's overwhelming. How could all of this already be behind me? How can the colorful images melding together be so plentiful? And surprisingly the ride just seems to speed up, even as my life in some ways has slowed way down.
I guess that life really is like a kaleidoscope though, at least in the American Heritage Dictionary's third definition of: "A series of changing phases or events." I mean, you can try to control it. You can think you are creating your own destiny, and of course to some degree this is true -- it's hard to be a healthy, happy person with a meth addiction -- but a lot of life is chance and good fortune and working hard while hoping for the best. The phases and events continue to come and go. Just try to stop them.
We live the life we have today the best we can, which turns into the life we have tomorrow, which day after day after day adds up to a messy, colorful conglomeration of everywhere we've been, all we've seen, everyone we know, and all those ceaseless thoughts and feelings we generate.
Here's to making magic with those light and mirrors.
|My current Facebook profile photo a la kaleidoscope.|